I haven't written a post in such a long time but trust me.. There's method to my madness!
In the time I haven't been on blogger I have been super duper busy with a brand spankin new job.. And Being the perfectionist that I am a half arsed rushed or tired post would just not do! Oh and when I say new.. It's been around 5 months but nevertheless, I am now a receptionist for a local (and a bit bloody lovely) little hotel I live near called The Berry Head Hotel. Working full time has been so mad coming from full time education, like adulthood has slapped me in the face to say hello! Luckily, I am a massive fan of the job so I don't mind the occasional slap.. (I'm not sure if my analogies are getting better or worse..)
In this time I have been massively umm'ing and ahhh'ing on the whole University situation as I have become extremely comfortable earning money regularly and being able to get myself in a nice little routine. I love who I work with, love talking to the residents and even have to wear a suit to work but recently I've decided, you should absolutely never get comfortable! Not at 19 anyway. This is the kind of job I could see myself doing for a long time as I love it, but what do I do in 10 years time? I've had this comfortable life and maybe now I get bored.. And I'm 29 with two kids and haven't even had my bloody uni freshers!! So last week I did something that was extremely UNcomfortable and made the decision I would 100% be going to university and moving to London this September. This would mean leaving my lovely job and I'm gonna be honest, living with something like anxiety makes it extremely hard to make these kind of decisions off the cuff and doing things out of your comfort zone.. University is always a big decision anyway for most people but the prospect of completely changing my life in just a couple of months really put me on edge but some things you have to do in order to progress. And at the moment, in myself and in my situation I really felt like I wasn't progressing in anything other than my job and that's kinda scary at my age.
I was also given a week off work on a Friday due to start on the Monday so I decided to book myself a little holiday to France to see my family. YAY SPONTANEITY. I had the most amazing week just chilling with my family and really getting to know everyone and spending quality time which was lovely as it's not very often I get to see my aunty, uncle and cousins. It felt like a bit of a celebration for me aswell because unfortunately, my uncle was diagnosed with Cancer last year but has been given the all clear some months back so to see everyone happy and healthy was an absolute blessing in itself. This trip was actually another push to go to university as my cousin, Liam got his BAC results back from his studies and he's a bit like me.. Not very academic but is a much more practical based learner and to be honest we weren't sure he was going to get it as he missed a YEAR and had like 30 points to catch up on (don't ask me about the French education system!) but he bloody got it! And my other cousin Amy, the maths whizz of the family also got in so they will be studying in Toulouse in September.
Unfortunately though, spontaneity doesn't alllllllways work for anxiety sufferers as I did end up having a very public panic attack at my departure gates to come home thanks to the very unhelpful and unsympathetic French man checking my passport who completely did not seem to grasp the illness which is something I'm not really a fan talking about and a negative I don't want to go into in this post. Saying that, I would really like to thank the lady who helped me so much and defended me during this when I though I wasn't going to be able to board as I probably wouldn't have got on without you! I never got her name but if somehow this post gets to her PLEASE let me thank you, you were such an amazing help!!
I think that's about everything for the moment, I feel like it's been forever since I've done a style/beauty post but now I'm back in the swing of things they are coming very soon! There is also some exciting news on it's way so keep your eyes peeled!
Lydia
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